Feel S**t (feat. Jelly Roll)

First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow Til' there's nothing else left but the ashes From all this weed I blow, to all these drinks I pour There ain't nothing else left but the ashes I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) And I can't be sober, when I'm alone A hundred missed calls on my phone I'm having withdrawals, leave me alone Leave me alone, feel it in my bones I hide it all inside I question myself, am I runnin' from something? I put in the work, went from nothing to something I still gotta deal with these fucked up assumptions I'm drunk when in public, still chuggin' and numbin' I was at rock bottom and I cried for help So I had to take a break just to find myself Never been to Heaven, spent some time in Hell Inside my shell, revenge, what I'm trynna smell I know it's all my fault, I'm the one to blame Instead of facin' those fears, I would runaway Couldn't tell apart all the love hate So fuck the fame, I guess it's my drug of taste I gotta clear my head and just hit restart I just did 25 shows and there's 15 more But when the cycle repeats, it won't get me far So I hide my pain deep within' these scars I got everybody sayin' I deserve to win But is it worth the regret, is it worth the sins? It hurts within, I'm thinkin' about my worth again I had to swim across the water, cuz I brunt the bridge So I try to get by, but I hide shit inside And I act like I'm havin' the time of life And I can't see the darkness if I'm in the light So if silence is golden? Then I'll be alright Cause I breathe in this smoke Then I exhale slow Til there's nothing else left but the ashes From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour There ain't nothin' else left but the ashes I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I've been on the bottom with all of the maggots I relapsed again and fell off of the wagon I guess I'm just hoping that all of my habits will finally help me to deal with the baggage I'm carryin' This life of sin, I'm thinking again Of all the friends I ended up buryin' All the dreams I done and see perishin' Man, it's imperative I change the narrative Know what is wrong, knew all along Deep in my heart I'm trying to fly Why does it feel like I'm dying to live But at the same time I'm trying to die Won't you help me, Lord? I know I've been selfish, Lord I know I've been wrong But I feel like I've been to hell before I just pour another drink to try to take the pain away Wonderin', is today the day that I'mma change my ways? No amount of cocaine could ever keep me numb From the shit that I done, done And the past I'm runnin' from First I breathe in the smoke Then I exhale slow Til there's nothing else left but the ashes From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour There ain't nothin' else left but the ashes I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) And I can't be sober when I'm alone A hundred missed calls on my phone I'm havin' withdrawals, leave me alone Leave me alone, I feel it in my bones I hide it all inside