Real Life (feat. Hard Target)

This whiskey here ain't strong enough for me So much pressure I can barely breathe My demons branded me like a headstone Mama ain't here no more to pray for me I'm surrounded by hate, fake, fame and greed That dark days always seem to find a way I've been dealing with pain, but keep a smile on my face When nothing goes right Then I take a left Down this old road of lonely With this whiskey breath I drink all night and wake up depressed Try to be a better father, put this bottle to rest I keep on going cause that's all I know Turnin' off every emotion. I'm in airplane mode I keep my past in the rear view With my middle finger up, screaming FUCK YOU! I'm broke down, tore into pieces Black clouds raining on me again I can't get away! Trying to get all the time I lost I can't get back 1 foot in, the other outside the door I can't make a mistake This is real life today This is real life today But I feel like I'm living on the edge of The motherfucking truth that I can't let go Down that road that I've been so long Mama know I'm wrong Daddy still gone. No one gives a fuck It's the same old song I can feel it in my head, I've been dead wrong Put away the bottle, then I come right home Saying that I'm done But the sad truth? I know I'm not Then I take another shot to the dome I've been through hell and I love it Trying to rise above it Take a look inside the mirror, can't help but be disgusted I'm gone Shit go wrong, I point the fingers at the other side Can't help but wonder why? I'm afraid I'll run and hide Funny how I sit there And pretend everything's going to be okay I'll pray to the lord, he going to lead my way I'm done with the drink till I see my grave But, I know that I'm not. Feeling it in my soul I'mma rot See it when I'm toasting a shot I'm cold and inside, pretending that I'm woke And, I'm not See it when I'm closing my eyes close my eyes And I don't understand why you put up with me I could rock the boat so much until it fucking sinks I'm broke down till I wanna up and leave But end up getting drunk And then I cause another scene and I'm gone I'm broke down, tore into pieces Black clouds raining on me again I can't get away Trying to get all the time I lost I can't give back. 1 foot in, the other outside the door I can't make a mistake This is real life today