Forever Close My Eyes

In midst of such madness, I grasped that elusive real

You believe to know those surrounding your visual

So typical of life to slap me, to humiliate

Left irate, I rely only on my hidden traits to stay the tide

All is mine to lose in my mind

Although I have already lost all

I am appalled by these very friendly sights

I remain polite in proper society, they view me as the sewer

My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone

Your careless expression left my wrists torn

Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone

Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms

Saturated thoughts of you weigh so heavy

On a mind so weary, always thought we'd have plenty

Never thought I'd be here now

Without she who breathes for me, I gasp for that life

Oh, to lay my head amongst your curves

Oh, to speak those words

I stare from broken window, eyes fixed upon your symbol

I suppose all things do pass, wrist grazing glass

White light at last gathers at feet caked in earth

My movements submerged by thickness of words

And I've laid my head amongst your curves

I've grown too old for your tone of voice to scold

Attempt evils untold, I'll fold when you laugh again

I'll smile when I'm dead

My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone

Your careless expression left my wrists torn

Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone

Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms

Does that keep you content?

My blood flows a velvet red into that familiar stream of tears

With passion, I spit upon that empty face

Were you disgraced when I broke your sacred circle?

I must admit, I was afraid this world would hurt you

As you hurt me

Crossed paths to speak but for an instant

Now gone without one trace, what is it about my vocal pattern

Which leaves me speaking to self?

Ugly blood pours from a warm, heartfelt vase

Flowers scattered on a cold stone floor connect nevermore

I am torn by my lack of emotions and plenitude of tears

Callous heart hurts none, yet weeps

Am I dead, Lord? Am I dead?

My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone

Your careless expression left my wrists torn

Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone

Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms

What happened to the times we spent dreaming of days to come?

So invincible then, before these times

I learned to bleed, on my knees, I prayed for us

As what we were slipped between my fingers

Those memories still linger

Anger permeates, it's not our idiosyncrasies

Which leave us ill, I wish to build

Yet it seems all I touch dies, endless drone of sighs

To convince this world we exist, loveless bliss

Content just to be spent at night's end

Fish for your reasons in the sea of ignorance

As if in trance, succumb to an ageless waltz of thought

Why were we brought together only to fall apart?

My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone

Your careless expression left my wrists torn

Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone

Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms

I gaze upon you one final time

I only gaze to truly know what was once mine

I toast with final swig of liquid life

Lay my head amongst familiar curves

And forever close my eyes