Turn Back (feat. Maverick Sabre)

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no daydreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no daydreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Born May, 1985

Ten months later, my little bro arrived

Raised in a place where it's do to survive

My mommy shot food to put honey in her hive

I can see the hunger in her eyes

I can see that something wasn't right

She taught me how to rap and shot my first ticket

She told me, watch my back, and be smart with it

And I wish that I could take you there

To a place that my brain takes me everyday

I can smile, but it still won't take the pain away

I could try, but remain in this lonely place

From a child, I've been raised in a soldier way

Mommy didn't ramp, she called us the Krays

No jokes, she showed us the ways

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no daydreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no daydreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Mommy couldn't cope, so she turned to drugs

But Auntie Tina gave us hope, she was there for us

I was raised on the roads, where it's rare to trust

Now my heart's been broke, now I'm scared to love

And I might seem closed until I open up

Feel the weight of the struggle I've been holdin' up

Been betrayed by a cuddle and a heartless hug

I drink pain from a bottle till my heart feels numb

'Cause I came from the bottom of this bottle of rum

Ain't changed from a youngin' I've been stuck in the slums

Grey days up in London, ain't no summer for us

They're tryna take aid, they want my brother in cuffs

And I just came home, this ain't nothing to ask

Like the court don't know how a sufferer does

This is poor home grown, but mom's love was enough

So I wanna give her more than she's givin' to us, 'cause

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no day dreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no day dreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I don't want to feel this

I don't want to seek this

I don't want to hurt no more

I don't want to be this

I don't want to feed this

I don't need to fight this war

'Cause I'm tryna be somebody

There's nothing I fear that can cloud it

I'm tryna be somebody

Need to get on up

Need to get on up now

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no daydreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been livin' this daily

With no peace, no daydreams to save me

Get high, 'cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time