Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Where we go from here? If I leave the block
A little money fine, but I need a lot
Take a preacher's route, but don't lie to people
I ain't never seen anything in the sky
Clean in the ride, what I mean that
I'm flying with a bitch, super mean
Bumping lean to the side, I was thinking about
Any means I could try
I believe in a high
[Verse 2]
Being logical gave me a reason to doubt
Schemed for the things I was dreaming
In a magazine article, reading about
Fates called, I ain't got to pay for drugs
It come free with the artificial love
Could I just do me?
Let me be me
I ain't arguing for much
[Verse 3]
I'm with this bitch, and I feel free
She don't demand of me for much
My sex drive been at an all time low
Could barely get it up
Trying to keep another motherfucker happy
Swear I'm giving up
[Verse 4]
Drug usages increasing since the last time
Been gone awhile, and I'll be back, just like the last time
[Verse 5]
Racks on me, stacks on me
Travel hard, one nation under God
In the car alone, praying to the stars
Engine roar, (Vroom-vroom) make an joyful noise
Praise be to Allah, come this far and all
Cocaine, foreign car, look who taking off
Throwin' money at my ****, younger sister really wishin' he was with us
But look who taking off
Band for you to keep, love I'm finna leave
So I guess I'm taking off
[Verse 6]
Good hearted, if you think wrong
How could you be right?
Four **** fucking the same bitch
She pop up pregnant, this can't be life
Get rid of the bitch 'fore I get rid of you, bitch
Sick of you, bitch, no hands on you
Rubber bands on you
I ain't talking like a stripper
Pay to do it, send razors through it
Spray the can, make it flip
[Verse 7]
Only reason I ain't killed your mother
Strength of her daughter
She cheats every day on your daddy
Try to give orders
Then they try to extort a gangsta
I'm someone important, don't step in my office
[Verse 8]
I ain't 'bout no talking, be sippin' my coffee
While bullets is sparking, without any caution
Now watch who I'm crossing
Boobie is awesome, can't trip if I lost you
With this, I went off
My grandpa, a gangsta, he died, I went off
Don't interrupt me while I am recording
Shit's so depressing, I wish I could pause it
Misunderstanding, put that on the coffin
Back to the margin, re-up and get off it
Labelled an orphan, lane on my own
I got the Hawking, I am retarded
Know there's, don't know what to call it
[Verse 9]
It's like sometimes, when I sit by myself
I honestly can say everybody can't relate
That's why I talk to my angel
I'm in the dark, looking for a peace of mind
I need guidance, Father, I can't see the signs
Like nothing real, the word redefined
And when the game is different, streets redesign
[Verse 10]
Still thuggin', but don't wanna catch a piece of time
Never know when that love might get you
When it's looking for shine
So many young **** lost, think vision is blind
Now I'm sick as fuck, got pain beating me down
[Verse 11]
Swear, **** sick of losing, where the fuck is the win at?
I gotta fight harder, where the fuck is my wind at?
Looking at the road, damn, where the fuck does it end at?
All I know is be the truth, swear nobody would bend that
All I know is loyalty, I don't know how to pretend that
You did a **** dirty, how the fuck am I'ma amend that?
You said you was alone, so I stepped to the plate
But shit got hard for me, ain't no help get sent back
[Verse 12]
Bet, everything that go up come down
Word to everyone of my **** that was gunned down
At night I talked to God, ain't get back one sound
It's hard to see light coming out when the sun down
Running, I don't even know where I'm headed
I did it all for the streets, all I got was the credit
If I could go back, I'd tell my **** to edit
Until I'm running out of time, get the clock then set it
[Verse 13]
Sluts lust, hoping they might trap shit all cause I rap
But now I hate this rap shit
Laws coming, ain't no time to react shit
Judge wanna convict me, I ain't even much clap shit
Born sinner 'cause I was looking for dinner
Trying to feed my kids, tell 'em daddy's a soldier
Lord knows I need them, kind of hard to function
Getting sick of the Devil, that bitch ridin' my shoulder
[Verse 14]
Fresh out my luck, something short of a clover
Stress, recycle, shit over and over
Fuck the world, these days shit colder
Friend fake, but all I want is to get older
Feeling the pressure like everyone's watching
The bell keep on ringing like something that's boxing
[Verse 15]
My son having seizures, no doctor can stop 'em
Hold onto him with all I got, can't drop him
My spirit been broke, I pray somebody swap him
My heart feeling back like if somebody shot him
My brother keep calling, I tell him I got him
And since nothing promised, I'm going without
[Verse 16]
My auntie just died, I can't cry, I just kissed her
Short of my visit, they told me I missed her
Look up to God, hoping heaven can list her
Somewhere in His Kingdom with both of my sisters
So, in my zone, **** fuck if I'm tripping
My testimony something **** should listen
Been 32 years, but I'm still on that mission
The struggle got a **** hooked like I'm fishing