Steven

Yeah, look

Let me tell you about a kid named Steven

He's slowly runnin' outta things to believe in

Every couple of months his mom leaves him

For no good reason his step dad beats him

Not too many friends only ever had a few of them

But recently, they don't want anything to do with him

Always eatin' lunch in the bathroom stall

He just wants to feel normal and be cool again, yeah

Always feelin' like the outcast

He's been going crazy ever since his dad passed

He needs guidance and advice but instead

He only has breakdowns and flashbacks of the car crash, uh

It's been gettin' harder everyday

If he was still around, everything would be okay

'Cause his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel

But now that same damn tunnel's looking dark and gray

He keeps quiet in the back of the class

And when the bell rings, Steven hurries home fast

He's scared to death the other kids'll kick his ass on the long walk home

'Cause it's happened in the past, so

He's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips

But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists

Wishin' he could walk right up to 'em, show 'em the scars

And say look, you're the reason that I've done this

And maybe they would finally understand

And go back to how it was before it all began

But he's just a little different so they taunt him and they beat him

Yeah, it's all just fun and games they don't give a damn, yeah

His older brother ain't around, in and out of jail, hangin' with the wrong crowd

He's been doin' coke, smokin' weed, gettin' drunk, all his life he's ashamed

No, he's not too proud

Now his habits are rubbin' off on his little bro, yeah

But guess, what little did he know

That every time he did a line, every time he lit a joint

Every time he took a shot, he would set the mode

So, Steven's sittin' in his room gettin' high now

Doors locked music up with the lights out

He just takes another toke, till his rooms filled with smoke

Five, six, seven hours till he knocks out

Now he started stealing pills from his mom

Eight, nine, ten at a time and now they gone

And maybe for the moment, all his problems seem to fade

But the high fades too after not too long

And that's when it really sinks in, that's when it hits him

That these God damn drugs won't fix him

Curled up on the floor can't take it anymore

Now he's talkin' to God, 'cause he's the only one that gets him

On his knees, looking up, can't stop cryin'

God, I know we haven't talked in a long time

But this time I really need you

Please God, help me say something

Just give me a sign, 'cause now I'm falling apart

And I don't think that I can do it

Please God, give me the strength to pull through it

Tell me should I give up, I could end it all right now

I just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it

'Cause there's gotta be a better way than suicide

Try to wait it out, give it time, you'll be fine

But it's been so long and I still haven't been able

To get rid of all the thoughts that I feel inside

So sick, so angry, so mad

And to top it off, no one even knows that

That's when he stood up, wiped his tears, walked over to his desk

And got a pen and a notepad

He just couldn't see it getting any better

So on that cold dark night in December

Steven knew exactly what he had to do

But first he sat down and wrote a couple letters

One to his step dad one to his mother

Couple to the kids at school one to his brother

Bringing them the pain that they once brought him

Tear drops on the paper, one after another

Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty

Cause I'm broken now and you can't heal me

And now you're all an accomplice to murder

Each and every one of you have chipped in to kill me

So the reason that I'm writing you this evening

Is to say goodbye and tell you that I'm leaving

But don't hold your breath cause I ain't never coming back

Sincerely yours, Steven