Traumatized

It really hurt me when they killed Shawty

I was locked down in my cell, and I had to read about it

And when they killed Diddy, left him out in Philly

We was young and gettin' money, man, we used to run the city

We was rockin' all them shows, fuckin' all them hoes

And when they killed Darryl, Renee had to see him froze on the ground

Downtown, I can hear the sounds now

When she walked up to that casket, seen her son, and fell down

I drop tears for my **** that ain't here

And still think about you, even though that it been years

'Cause half the **** that I grew up with is all dead

All this pain and all this stressin', I should have a bald head

'Cause when my Aunt Rhonda died, she looked Tak in his eyes

Saw death comin', when she seen it, she just cried

Prolly part of the reason we drink and we get high

When I find the **** that killed my daddy, know I'ma ride

I hope you hear me, I'ma kill you, ****

To let you know that I don't feel you, ****

Yeah, you ripped my family apart and made my mama cry

So when I see you, ****, it's gon' be a homicide

'Cause I was only a toddler, you left me traumatized

You made me man of the house, and it was grindin' time

So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days, I'ma let this rain hit you, ****

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)

Yeah, you ripped my family apart and made my mama cry

So when I see you, ****, it's gon' be a homicide

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)

So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days, I'ma let this rain hit you, ****

And I ain't ready

**** wanna murder me, I'm ridin' round heavy

I think they wanna wet me like New Orleans and the levees

But I got this MAC-Elev-y, these **** will never get me

Lord knows, I got a lot of homies in the dirt

**** sprayin' metal, try and take you off the earth

Really over nothin', tell me what it's worth

Try and take you out the game just to put you on a shirt

I rose from the jungle like Derrick

Death to anybody that oppose my spirit

My future lookin' brighter than this rose I'm starin' at

We be runnin' trains on the hoes y'all cherish

Rest in peace to my ****, I swear I miss 'em to death

My hammer sing Murda Muzik, I'll let you listen to death

I'll have you walk with the reaper when hollows rip through your chest

'Cause if you throw 'em, I throw 'em back like Mitchell and Ness

I'm gone

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)

Yeah, you ripped my family apart and made my mama cry

So when I see you, ****, it's gon' be a homicide

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)

So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days, I'ma let this rain hit you, ****

Yeah, man, my life so real

Last night I went to sleep and woke up with the chills

Started with a dollar, now I got a couple mil'

And I make a hundred thousand every time a **** spill

Man, I almost got merced in front of the same church

My dad got carried in, family got married in

That was in my older days, this is now, that was then

Had the block jumpin' for them dollars, Shawn Marion

Young ****, gon' get my own, that's why I'm arrogant

Homie need the bail for them bonds, we'll bury 'em

Lock 'em like a terrier, breakin' all barriers

Just to beat the trial, we go miles like Darius

'Cause cop tryin' catch me, **** tryin' clap me

Haters runnin' at me, know they wanna get at me

And people got the nerve to ask why I don't look happy

I did it for my ****, and I did this shit for Kathy

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)

Yeah, you ripped my family apart and made my mama cry

So when I see you, ****, it's gon' be a homicide

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)

So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days, I'ma let this rain hit you, ****

(I know, I know, I know, I know, know)

(I know, I know, I know, I know)