Clearance

You keep asking if I'm fine

But the words just stick inside

Like they're caught behind my teeth

And I'm drowning underneath

All the noise that fills my head

While I'm lying in this bed

Staring at the ceiling cracks

Wishing I could just go back

Everything feels far away

Even when you're here to stay

There's static in my brain tonight

Can't tune in, can't make it right

You're reaching through the interference

But I'm lost in my own clearance

There's static in my brain tonight

Coffee tastes like nothing now

And I can't remember how

Things used to feel so real

Before this numbness I can't heal

You're talking but I fade

Into this mess that I have made

Of simple conversations

And all my failed translations

Everything feels far away

Even when you're here to stay

There's static in my brain tonight

Can't tune in, can't make it right

You're reaching through the interference

But I'm lost in my own clearance

There's static in my brain tonight

Listen, I've been trying to explain this feeling but the words keep slipping

Like water through my fingers and I'm gripping onto nothing

You see me sitting here but I'm not really present

My mind's a broken radio, the signal's getting desperate

I want to let you in but there's a wall I can't break down

Built from all the silence and the weight of breaking down

You say you understand but how could you possibly know

What it's like to be a ghost inside your own damn show

I'm screaming but no sound comes out, I'm reaching but I fall

Behind this glass partition that separates us all

From the person that I used to be, the one who used to laugh

Now I'm just a shadow of my former other half

Maybe if I turn the volume up

Maybe if I smash this whole thing up

Something real might break on through

Something real might get to you

There's static in my brain tonight

Can't tune in, can't make it right

You're reaching through the interference

But I'm lost in my own clearance

There's static in my brain tonight

(Static in my brain)

(Can't make it right)

(Static in my brain)

(Tonight)