Player One

Some days

I just hate myself

Can't stand the mirror

On my god damn shelf

I wish

I could turn into someone else

I know nobody's perfect right

But everyone looks so happy all the time

Like they

Never wonder if they're living a lie

And maybe it is all just a game we play

Smile through the doubt and push it all away

But the days are getting hazy

And I'm tired of maybe

Still I fake it like it doesn't shake me

Maybe I'm just getting older

Keep getting stuck I falter

When the days get dark and colder

Guess I hate getting older

Thought I'd be fine by this summer

Still can't outrun all of the thunder

Try to speak up but I stutter

Guess I'm scared

Scared to go under

Keep it inside

Let the silence grow

Smile for the crowd

But they'll never know

Say I'm okay like it's on repeat

And maybe it is all just a game we play

Smile through the doubt and push it all away

But the days are getting hazy

And I'm tired of maybe

Still I fake it like it doesn't shake me

Maybe I'm just getting older

Keep getting stuck I falter

When the days get dark and colder

Guess I hate getting older