Amadeus

I relapsed again

At least I tricked myself

Thinking I dreamt for somebody new

Yet I stand watching composure fall into you

It's easier to blink

Miss the year as it folds

It's harder to think

And I'm crawling on my own

See love as it trickles down your cheek

And I own the belief that blood runs the same

I'm inept and profoundly condemned

Just as sure as the infirmary between us and them

It's easier to blink

Miss the year as it folds

It's harder to think

And I'm crawling on my own

Amadeus lost his gun

Misplaced the second meanings

Twice bridging the gap you promised you'd run

I lost my faith in God

My faith's hollow and cold

I'll believe what I see once your tongue breaks the mould

It's easier to blink

Miss the year as it folds

It's harder to think

And I'm crawling on my own

I cracked and shed a leg

Inventing words not said

'Cause fiction works a better path

Than life excluding death

I feel it all and I feel it now

Collecting my regrets

Gone but still forgotten

I relapsed again

At least I tricked myself

Thinking I dreamt for somebody new

Yet I stand watching composure fall into you