Hole in Me

Picture myself

Standing tall at 23

Just a young kid moving through the world that craved the love so desperately

Desperately

I was brought into a world

That gave my heart its very blood

But very slowly that was taken from me

All I wanted was you to believe in this world with me

But you chose to leave me

You left a hole in me

All I wanted was you to believe this was meant to be

You left a hole in me

I dreamt about my future so meticulously

Every second etched in stone, turned my hunger into gold

Then you broke me

Burned my whole world down

All I wanted was you to believe in this world with me

But you chose to leave me

You left a hole in me

All I wanted was you to believe this was meant to be

But you chose to leave me

That’s when I felt all the rain on me

Pouring the weight of my insecurities

But you chose to leave me

You left a hole in me

That’s when I lost myself

I believed

You hated all of me

All that I stood for, all my beliefs

Then I saw

A beating heart

Then in all set in

That I meant nothing to you

That’s when it all set in

I know what is best for me

You caused me nothing but sorrow

A bitter taste in my mouth

A sorry state of someone hurting inside and choosing to lose the ones who care

No matter where you are

You had a way to control me

But now my system is rebuilding itself

Just let me be

All I wanted was you to exist in this world with me

But you chose to leave me

You left a hole in me

All I wanted was you to believe this was meant to be

But you chose to leave me

That’s when I felt all the rain on me

Pouring the weight of my insecurities

But you chose to leave me

You left a hole in me

You left a hole in me