poet

Call me a poet, I got so much shit I gotta say

One second life is good, but I'm so scared it might go all away

I got so much shit I need to do that I won't do today

I'm married to the game, but I just hope it ain't consuming me

In love and I'm happy, hoping one day she might marry me

But damn, I fucked up super bad, I hope she ain't resenting me

I can't look at the past, I know damn well that that ain't good for me

But every night I lay up wishing I could change our history

I think I have some people I can say are really close to me

But now I'm second guessing who I think that they supposed to be

I thought that I could tell you everything, but I'm still wondering

If I let all my intuitions out, will they still fuck with me?

I wish that I could have it easy, maybe have it figured out

But I know damn well that just isn't real and not what life's about

I hope that I'll be stable and I won't be sleeping on the couch

But every day I get a little bit closer to just giving out

I'm constantly just overthinking every little fucking thing

I'm seeing gray strands in my hair because of all the stress I bring

Too many what-ifs, I just wish my life could have consistency

I'm too caught up on putting all my chips in the contingencies

Sometimes I get stuck in the past and wishing I could take it back

Nostalgia trips are taking over, it's all that I can think about

Don't wanna alter much, I'd just go back up to my favorite place

And see myself with zero worries, see the smile on my face

Pain, pain, pain

Is all that you bring me

I know that you see me

But life still goes on

Yeah, life still goes on

Say my name

So I know you're with me

And then you could give me

A sense of reflection

And maybe I'll learn my lesson

I don't know how I would face you if it goes really wrong

Driving 20 hours going nowhere to my favorite song

I would fall apart and break to pieces, and I know I'm young

But opportunities, they don't just come and go for anyone

Maybe I would get back on my feet and I could start again

But realistically, I might just spiral out and meet my end

Recently I've got to thinking you could even be my friend

But after this I'm scared that I just might not talk to you again

I've been stuck inside my head, it's like a loop I can't escape

Every time I think it's done, it hits me harder, no delay

Told myself to let it go, but some things always wanna stay

So I'm left with all this weight, and no one ever sees the strain

I don't beg for second chances, but this one's hard to ignore

'Cause the silence in between us cut me deeper than before

I've been sleepin' through the day just tryna settle inner wars

And if this shit is really over. don't know what I'm here for

Pain, pain, pain

Is all that you bring me

I know that you see me

But life still goes on

Yeah, life still goes on

Say my name

So I know you're with me

And then you could give me

A sense of reflection

And maybe I'll learn my lesson