For Leaving

If I win this fight

I'm gonna lose you

So we lay down

How we used to

But I've been angry

I've been so tired

And I've given you every reason to hate me

And baby, that takes up so much of my mind

Oh, lay with me

You've got a lot of nerve

And yeah, I said some things

But you drew blood first

All my enemies

All have held a mirror to me

And I'm sorry

I thought I was ready to be seen

Baby, forgive me for leaving

Baby, you knew how I was

I can feel something in the ceiling

Something that I can't fight off

You were like an angel, all emaciated

Dressed, singing to me out on the fire escape

Baby, I was never wanting it

I was only ever proving to me that I could do it

And I did it, until I couldn't

And I knew it

But I wanted to be wrong so bad

It was always money and time racing at me

I was out there tryna make my life

And you said I was clipping your wings

And oh, then we went to bed, baby

Never mentioned it again, baby

But oh, I remember it

Hell, if nothing else, I remember this

Oh

Baby, forgive me for leaving

Baby, you knew

How I was

I can feel something in the ceiling

Something that I can't outrun

Don't come 'round here anymore

I'm gonna do it again

I wanted to be better so bad

I just don't think I'm that man