Dear Mom - Sped Up

I think I'm runnin' out of time

I think that I'm finally losin' my mind

'Cause I can't stop sittin' here doin' these lines

My mama said, "Boy, you must be out your mind," yeah

I see you in here on your grind, but

You only get older and time don't go backwards

So what jobs? What you should go find, yeah

But mom, my anxiety's finally gettin' better

And she said, "That's fine, but

I can't have you here just takin' up space like your dad did back when you was nine," yeah

But mom, please just give me some time

I swear to God, we gon' be fine

I swear to God, one day I'll buy you a car and myself the best house I can find

I swear to God, I'll prove 'em wrong

I know you believe in me, so I'll prove you right

Just don't ever forget that I'll never give up even though this ain't what you like, yeah

But there's nothin' else for me out there

I'll make it or I'm goin' down there

The cloud that hung over my head, it done ran out of rain and now it put a round there

I swear to God, I cannot stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminish

Until I stand up and say that I made it

And tell my mom I have a reason for livin', yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

And mom, see, I know that this tongue's on your mind, yeah

You seem to forget about mine, yeah

I'll admit I don't wanna talk about them, I'd rather look at pictures of Violet

But mom, I just need to confide and

Say what's here up on my mind and

Tell you 'bout all of the shit that's been goin' on

Please, can you just give me five, yeah?

Startin' out, the girl I love is back here and I think she gon' stay in my life, yeah

It's hard 'cause I love her so much, but it's rough at the moment, I can't make her mine, yeah

And plus, I'm in love with her mindset

It's crazy 'cause she's doin' so much better than me, like, how the hell did I find that?

Yeah

And Johnny's been downin' these bottles again

And I don't think that I can stop him again

'Cause every time he go out partyin', sayin' he's done, he find beer and then start up again

And mom, now I feel like a loser

This girl, I cannot ever lose her

And John, find a bottle and choose her

And I don't know just what to do

But there's nothin' else with me out there

I'll make it or I'm goin' down there

The clouds that hung over my head, it done ran out of rain and now it put a round there

I swear to God, I cannot stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminish

Until I stand up and say that I made it and tell my mom I have a reason for livin'

There's nothin' else with me out there

I'll make it or I'm goin' down there

The clouds that hung over my head, it done ran out of rain and now it put a round there

I swear to God, I cannot stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminish

Until I stand up and say that I made it and tell my mom I have a reason for livin'

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah