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The Eldest
Rock
The Eldest was released on May 19, 2025 by KhotVerMyMood as a part of the album The Eldest - Single
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Release DateMay 19, 2025
LabelKhotVerMyMood
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM86

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
KhotVerMyMood
KhotVerMyMood
Programming
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Kotchaphat Sontammakoon
Kotchaphat Sontammakoon
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
KhotVerMyMood
KhotVerMyMood
Producer

Lyrics

Lyrics:
Grew up fast in a home full of weight
The eldest child — expected to be great
But who teaches love when trust is fake?
When smiles deceive and hearts just break?
They told me “be strong” — so I silenced my pain
Swallowed my cries, stood alone in the rain
Sweet talk was poison in disguise
I trusted lies dressed in lullabies
I gave my word, they took my worth
No money, no backup — just dirt
So I became the villain in their story
No glory, no grace — just borrowed worry
Mirror’s cracked, can’t see my tears
How many more until it clears?
Family dreams, sharp like knives
But never once said “I’m proud you survived”
How many times must I bleed?
Before they see it’s not greed
Just a soul begging to be seen
With one little light I keep within
Hope’s just a whisper I hold in fists
And maybe that’s enough, amidst the twists
They curse my fate, I curse it back
But I’m still here — that’s a fact
I’d trade the world for just one truth
That I was worth it, since my youth
Still learning how to love this shell
Still fighting storms inside this hell
I ain’t flawless — I’m fire and fault
I’m the scream behind your default
I’m the one who stands through the fall
No backup, no fame — just one call:
I’m still the kid they never saw
With adult scars they won’t recall
Each bruise is ink, each fall’s a verse
I don’t need fame — I just need to feel worth
No spotlight, no big parade
But I’m the storm they can’t evade
Not for revenge, not to please
Just want peace — just want peace
How many times must I cry?
Before I stop asking why
Even if I fade alone someday
Let me forgive me — come what may
I’m just a child with years on my face
Still trying to find my place
But if I smile one more time today…
I’ll thank me,
For walking all this way
Written by: Kotchaphat Sontammakoon
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