Masking (feat. Myles Bullen)

If you see me out in public and I'm laughing, I'm masking

Catch me up on stage rapping, masking

They say you're so fun, what's your secret

Thanks for asking, it's masking

As a teen, I learned showing feelings was a bad thing

Dad said, don't let me catch you acting like no sad freak

That's weak, at least pretend to be happy

Whether it's legit or not don't mean a damn thing

And see, since I didn't want to get my ass beat

I learned to fake my attitude like an Olympic athlete

Acting like I had joy everlasting

When in actuality inside my head I'm under water gasping

See me at my workplace and I'm chatting, I'm masking

That's me up on stage dancing, masking

They say you're so cool, what's your secret

Thanks for asking, it's masking

The strong friend, always happy

Optimistic, positive, an empathetic athlete

Surface level superhero, vigilante, masking

Underneath the suit is something far less attractive

Um, insecurities expanded

Terrified of getting stranded

Left behind and I'm abandoned

Hello

Where'd everybody go

Scared

If I'm not the source of enjoyment

That might be a negative effect to my employment

Super duper anxious, avoidance

Attention deficit, hyperactive, annoyance

Always on

Never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever have a day off

A billion thoughts that want to kill me never shut my brain off

Chill bro, stay calm

The world is ending, everyone is dying

But at least you have a paying job

I forgot to eat again, I guess today I'm fasting

Chronically I'm sleep deprived, green room, I'm napping

If you see me at a concert and I'm clapping, I'm masking

Last week out with my family, masking

They say you're so chill, what's your secret? Thanks for asking

Masking

Have you seen anyone quite as pathetic as me

Probably not, my thoughts are tangled like a rat king

Not into interacting, I'm only at peace

When I'm fast asleep or getting wacky on a fat beat

I know my problems ain't that pressing in the grand scheme

But it's pretty weird how all this small talk feels attacky

I pray it's my imagination or a bad dream

And lastly, whether online or in person, please don't at me

See me out in public and I'm laughing, I'm masking

Catch me up on stage rapping, masking

If you want to know the way I keep myself from snapping

It's masking