Mixed Feelings

I\'m hard to describe

Can\'t pick a side

I\'ve spent my whole life switching

Between who to make proud

And who to let down

Wasting all my time wishing

I was more of one color

Less of the other

Deadlock and neither\'s winning

Try not to feel so different

A Beijing girl met a bluegrass man

And here I am

In the middle of looking for a place to land

With all these mixed feelings

Never really knowing where I fit

Mixed feelings

One foot in each door but can\'t get in

Still got so much to learn

It\'s a blessing and a curse to be like this

Having all these mixed feelings

All these feelings

I\'m all over the map

Don\'t know where I\'m at

Where I\'m from and where I\'m headed

If I squint when I smoke

And people make jokes

Then half of me gets offended

Least I\'m getting a taste

Of more than one place

Keeping my options open

It\'s identity psychosis

A Beijing girl met a bluegrass man

And here I am

Making my way trying to understand

With all these mixed feelings

Never really knowing where I fit

Mixed feelings

One foot in each door but can\'t get in

Still got so much to learn

It\'s a blessing and a curse to be like this

Having all these mixed feelings

All these feelings

Where do I belong

I\'m never home, it\'s just a visit

Unsure of where I stand

And so I sit with indecision

With all these mixed feelings

Never really knowing where I fit

Mixed feelings

One foot in each door but can\'t get in

Still got so much to learn

It\'s a blessing and a curse to be like this

Having all these mixed feelings

All these feelings

These mixed feelings

All these feelings