Caring

The days were gray my skin was sponge

Submerge me in the pool

Let memory have its way with me collect

Soak up each drop each lick

Flowers made me cry today

I thought about Rainier

Sandwiches by the rocky stream

He laid on ants smiling up at me

What if each memory

Was as good as I remembered it

What about worrying is just a part of the rest

How does anyone do this

I asked my mom I asked my sis

Loving's easy love is hard

Caring's just the worst thing of all

Took him to the yurt at first

Alone that was my pride

Safe on stilts and reminisced

The flood had ebbed in tide

I felt the water rush below

The night his legs won't work

And picked my bones up off the floor

And said this is much fucking worse

I love him

I love him more

Than any day that came before

I love him

I love him more

Take me first take me before

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

What if each memory

Was as good as I remembered it

What about worrying is just a part of the rest

How does anyone do this

I asked my mom I asked my sis

Loving's easy love is hard

Caring's just the worst thing of all