Dear Nan

Dear nan

I wrote this just to show you that I’m thinking bout you

There’s not a day that goes past that I don’t think about you

I tell the truth I kinda struggle tryna live without you

Promise ima do it for the fam it’s always been about you

Yh

Cos your the one I learnt from

I just stay strong n take it on now I’m hurt one

I just shed a tear about you n then I burnt one

Ima a nanny’s boy and grand kids I was your first one

Even tho I didn’t mean it

I know I hurt you and we ain’t been the same

I know I’m standing on some business we don’t see the same

I know your knowing that I love you tho either way

I put everybody first for once I’m choosing me today

It ain’t like me to change

I don’t fold I’ll never bend

Nanny knows I am not a follower my boi I set the trends

I’m the type to force the issue not to make amends

Just cos you understand don’t mean that I ain’t making sense

I think about you when I wake before I eat

And at night time n we just put my babygirl to sleep

You see this path that i entailed is definetely not for the weak

I told Calvin skip the tranks

He said that’s how he gets to sleep

7 days left off the week

But I feel like I got Nuttin left

Nanny your my heart when u ain’t here then there ain’t nothing left

When I’m on go

I never showed it never made you stress

I show the world how fires burning when you play with Hec

I’m loading it might take a sec

All the fake love you can take it back

Especially if you haven’t lllseen my baby yet

Everybody’s got a voice that’s why I hate the net

But you know real trench mob you shouldn’t play wid dem

Your forgiveness might just take a while

But all I want you to know is

Is all I ever wanted to was make you smile

Yh my heads been gone and it’s been a while

But I’ll admit ima own it I ain’t indenial

Getting through certains situations nan

C sent me mad

Feeling like I lost myself I had to get me back

I start to think about tzar and it me sad

I don’t show but understand this pain nan it’s get me bad

N you just had your operation

While everyone was stressing I just told em that your strong and to be patient

I wish that I was there with you nan I hate it

But it couldn’t and it fucks wit me

N it’s all over fuckery

Not to you hear you for a day is like a month for me

Comfortably

I don’t feel like none these rappers touching me

When I see that shit on insta it disgusted me

Christmas I ain’t get to see your face ain’t get the luxury

Ain’t get the call ain’t get the ping

N I understand your feelings

And pretty sure that mine don’t mean a thing

I can handle pain but this is startna get under my skin

We had them Demons at the door I guess somebody let them in

I guess

But this is just how life goes

I guess

That this is the life we chose

I guess

You need me and I’m on my way

I guess

I love you nan I hope you know