Little Bird

It all started in a hospital bed

When they made up the words to say you were gone

Said you didn't make it, to where we were

As if where we were was better

So I fell down backwards inside my bottom lip

Collapsed into a dead weight black out

Spun myself into a thread

And backed out of all my stitches

I woke up inside the tv

Toes on the edge in the brake dust

Left shoulder baked in a lightning bath

Head dull and grainy

When all the air pulled out and stopped

I was a little wet bird

Walking around a forest fire

Seat belted right next to a bruised miracle

Sat behind a woman broken into a thousand ways to say

Never Give Up

So she didn't

You had a sea glass halo

Pinned to a cloud with wishes kisses

Surrounded by your loves

Waving goodbye

Singing something about leaving

But it wasn't in a language that we worry over

We built a world and colored it

Cut out cardboard castles to candle light

Made up songs to sing joy through our greys, and our whites

Smiling inside of October

And when that second Christmas came we held each other's gifts

The sky wept, and we haven't been the same since

I wasn't ready to do the dance that everyone else seemed suited for

In my magic light blue suit

Quarters coming out of my ears

Both hands filled with shape of your absence

Sorry, you couldn't make it, to where we were

As if where we were was better

You were gone

To everywhere else

Back into the air we breathe

Back into everyone I meet

Carrying the zero

Sharing your math

Smiling at all the joys that came to you

And most days I can't stop waking in circles

A head full of brake dust

Alive at the wheel

Through the morning rays

Shining through all the shapes we make

So I sit on that road

One arm in a sling

Where the wind goes over the wing

And open up my mind up as big as it will go

As big as this floating globe

Push my soul through my teeth

And stitch my way back to home

I wake up inside the tv

And see a little wet bird asleep in a hospital bed

One wing longer than the other

And a life opened up as big as it will go

What an unending place