Playing Pretend

We all woke up one day

A light, turned on

Into our existence

Into sound and cold and confusion

Just like everyone else who has ever done this

Even the ones of us who have touched the sky

Shoved right into a costume that will never fit

And every day is halloween

Clashing against our intuition

We all woke up one day

Every. Single. One of us

Looking out of our miracle

Bolted to reality

A metaphor for a mystery

Loved by the wonders that made us

In their own ways

That they learned how

That got hammered into them

By wolves

Just trying to make it

Playing pretend

We all wake up one day

Blanketed in fear

Collared with reality

Get given a dog in the fight by the wolves that raised us

They said

Our imaginary friend

It's better than everyone else's imaginary friend

Dug those walls right into us against our better sense

Tied our balloon to a closed down mind

And family and worth

We all wake up one day

With everything we need already inside of us

And still take someone else's word for it

Willing to hold that as truth

Instead of listening to our own

And point that thing into our inevitable

Writing the answers on our sails so we don't forget again

We are all playing pretend

We will all wake up one day

Just like everybody else does

Just like god did

You can see her everywhere

In every thing

I don't use words when I pray

That's a waste of the answer

I keep my hands and everything, open

That's where the answer is

In the open

In the wild, dull sparkle

The space between heaven and hell

Is the distance between faith and doubt

In ourselves

We will all wake up one day

Into our existence

Powerful miracles wrapped in skin

Pushed down by drink

And age

And the learning that we can't

Shamed smooth by our mistakes

Forgetting our accents

And the roads we learned on

But we are who we pretend to be

So don't just do something

Sit there, and think it through

You could die at any time

But then again you could live at any time too