Mindfuck

Catastrophic thinking, again and again.

My mind goes to the most fatal place it can.

Can't get a grip on the handle,

I just have to ride the wave.

Claustrophobic, I feel my life crushing in.

I'm suffocated by all the awful stories I spin.

The anxiety is making me ill

And I wish I didn't wake up today.

Shackled to pain, a prisoner in my own soul.

A never-ending suffering, the blackest hole.

Can't put right the cogs in my brain,

I feel like I'm doomed to this.

Always the same, I never have any control,

I'm just incapable of letting it go.

I don't hear what I don't want to

When I'm running with the nonsense.

The mind is what alters our reality.

Mindfuck.

Life is such a cruel but beautiful thing

and my reality is not what they see.

It's like I'm sky-high but the rocket is still on the ground.

I flew my own spaceship up here.

I'm on a rollercoaster, a panic ride.

I'm in the zone to get fucked by my mind.

I'm on a rollercoaster, a panic ride.

I'm in the atmosphere, I'm star-blind!

I'm sick of my brain attacking me, against me.

I just want to be safe in my body.

Mostly I just wanna be free of the mindfuck.

I'm on a rollercoaster, a panic ride,

Sometimes I want to fucking die!

Mostly I just wanna be free of the mindfuck!