Garden of Shadows

Soul twitching, roots twisting

My every thought is sickening

I'm restless, confessions

The thought just leaves me breathless

I can't imagine a day without broken promises

I'm so ashamed of the way I adore my bondages

All it took was a taste

This garden was beautiful

But now it's filled with shadows of gray

There's blood in the rain

The soil is stained, I'm wilting

Carve away the secrets in me

It's like I'm sedated

Unholy medication

Lost count of my faces

Only the fire of God can save me

So melt away the masquerade

Expose what's under my skin

And separate the flesh and me

I need to reawaken

All it took was a taste

This garden was beautiful

But now it's filled with shadows of gray

There's blood in the rain

The soil is stained, I'm wilting

Carve away the secrets in me

Yes, okay, one, two, three, breathe

Inhale, exhale

I'm sick, not well

Tryna prevail, I fail

Expel this spell

One, two, three, breathe

Secrets I'm holding feel like a weight on my shoulder

Intoxicated I'm feeling, but, yet I'm sober

They say He paid the price for me, I upped the total

Changed my direction, I'm tryna shift like a motor

I know this ain't who I'm meant to be

But if it's meant to be, then come and carve these secrets out of me or what's inside of me

Draw it out of me like phlebotomy

It's me versus me, like a rivalry

I tell you how I get here in privacy, like, yo

I need to find myself again

Trapped inside these shadows of gray

All it took was a taste

This garden was beautiful

But now it's filled with shadows of gray

There's blood in the rain

The soil is stained, I'm wilting

Carve away the secrets in me

All it took was a taste

This garden was beautiful

But now it's filled with shadows of gray

There's blood in the rain

The soil is stained, I'm wilting

Carve away the secrets in me

I need to find myself again

Trapped inside these shadows of gray