In My Feels (feat. Catch)

Even though I keep a brave face, I'm still in my feelings

All the shit I've been through in my life, still don't know the meaning

Boy, I got all these crazy bitches just tryna get even

Everything just starts going left when I ain't tryna see them

It's feeling like just the other day, I had to fight for my freedom

Feels like just the other day bro died, we're still grieving

Had to tell my shawty, "Give me time, let me get back sturdy"

It feels like just the other day, I was jumping the queue on servery

Feels like just the other day big bro left him there

Now he's walking out the prison and it's been a whole eighteen years

I'm at the bar, sipping Henny doubles, yo where's my refill?

You know what it's like being a man today, they don't care how we feel

Spoke to Sharks the other day, he just told me, "Stay strong"

It's cool, I know Dez got a beat I can put some pain on

Probation on my back, they wanna know I'm rolling with

They want me back in jail bad, I can't even roll a spliff

My hitta's been hitting, not a thing that I'm pressed about

If I'm pressed then it's probably 'cause my girl tryna stress me out

My whole bird, my **** Trigz made sure I was living straight

Now I'm pissed 'cause he's on the other side of the prison gates

Million pound dreams got me staying awake at night

My girl says all my friends are criminals and I hate she's right

I need a break but probation ain't tryna let me take no flights

So I'm staying out the way, I ain't tryna get read my rights

Jigga just got twenty-three years, that's the same as life

And it was really self defence, I don't know what that pain feels like

My **** River landing, making sure we all smoke at night

And we don't get no sosh if they didn't get the roll check right

What you know about trusting in your lawyer? Gotta hope he's right

And you know you ain't walking out this time, still you hope you might

Ready for the sentence, know it's coming, just hope it's light

Pissed off like one of the OG's just broke my bike

Boy, I'm like 50's hashtag, I'ma get the strap

And it had to be a fire in the flat if I left the trap

Me and them hoes connect because we're both tryna get that bag

If I never went jail and did them years

They say I woulda been a millionaire

I guarantee I'ma still become a millionaire

I don't wanna talk about the losses, it's a sore topic

And S just rang and told me that he's got some raw dropping

I sell white, I don't know if I'ma sell out songs

And my man coulda been a real G but he went out wrong

And since music, they keep popping up with rumours

Little pussy, you best crawl back in that hole that you fell out from

I just done how many years on the same mattress

They're acting like I gave these kittens cocaine habits

Ask about, nobody had it like K had it

I told 'em, "I fixed 'em, I never made addicts"

They said I can't be round the mandem, I said "Say nuttin"

But you know I'm still around the GG's like I'm Zayn Malik

How many times I made it rain in my rain jacket?

How many of these sexy bitches got my name tatted?

And when I blow, I beg you teach me how to pay taxes

Before they try and do me like Wesley Snipes

I got a girl, she got a posh friend, a scary friend

A tomboy friend so I call her my sexy spice

I spent years eating tuna and noodles

I smoked a spliff, I hope the gov don't look at my pupils

Came home, Danger had a bulldog in his pouch

I said, "I dare these **** try and cut through with their poodles"

Man, they took Magga and put him in the jail for that hood passa

Pissed cah they took Jesse and they took Baka

Ask nanna, I was giving out trainers like the hood Santa

Cook cocaine like I cook pasta

I see these fugazi **** tryna look gangster

While the gangsters out here acting like we're good people

We get that drug bread and try and make it look legal

Oi, in the trap, you gotta watch out for them buj needles

I got some white boys and they're looking like the hood's Beatles

While these white girls are flying like some seagulls

Known this fire one since preschool

She's a good girl, she don't know I been jail so I'm here lying that I'm legal

But if I never done them years, I most probably wouldn't be sitting here

So I don't regret a thing, I had to sit in there

Ay, Tom, they don't know the shit we writ in there

I tell a boy to write you off, you're getting written there