Sorry Mama

This a letter to the lady who had me

Who gave birth to me in the hospital

She ain't really my mama tho

Turn it up in the earphones yuh

Ima apologize to you

Since I feel like I got in your way

I don't know

Aye look

I don't know too much I know you left me

When I was just a lil baby

Some times I think about that shit

I be like damn that shit crazy

How you raise them other kids and

You ain't check on ya baby

I know you had some other kids but

How you ain't check on ya latest

People ask me how I feel about it when we converse

I use to tell em I ain't care cause you had left me at birth

But when my daddy seen my eyes

That **** knew it was worse

I used to ask if you was alive

I pictured you in a hurst

I pictured you at ya worst

Now picture you in this verse

Now picture me as a lil kid tryna figure out what I'm worth

Now picture me as a lil kid tryna figure out if I'm cursed

Now picture me as a lil kid tryna figure out if I'm hurt

I'm sorry mama

I just want to apologize to you

I never meant to hurt you

I hate I even went through this shit

I never meant to make you leave me

I hate I even had to do a song like this

I'm cleaning out my closet

One more time aye

I'm sorry mama

How you leave yo mother fucking baby

I never meant to hurt you

Just by hisself like that

I never meant to make you leave me

Thought I'm supposed to be all you had

I'm cleaning out my closet

Aye Aye

You know I started to run

Soon as I found out how to walk

You know I started with guns

Soon as I found out how to pow

You know I started the fun

Soon as I found out bout the law

You know my son? Yo quote unquote grandson?

He finally can talk

You know he autistic

He got a slight delay in his speech

I think it's God punishing me

For how I play in these streets

You know I do my thing

I get them bricks of yay for the cheap

You know I changed the game

I take my life and say it on beats

You know my daddy said that

He was gon be there but he wasn't

He dropped me off in Adamsville

Man I was raised by my cousin

You know Pam and Sally took me in

Treated me as they own

Gave me a bed with Barney sheets

I had a room in they home

I met yo mama one time

She said "you a bundle of mine"

And I guess she my grandma but

I ain't feel like she mine

And she told me you wasn't shit and

I ain't feel like she lying

And she told me she be crying but

I ain't feel like she crying

I'm sorry mama

Aye I want to apologize for like

I never meant to hurt you

Getting in yo mother fucking way

I never meant to make you leave me

Now everybody I fuck with I feel like I'm in they way

I'm cleaning out my closet

Shit fucked a **** over

One more time aye

I'm sorry mama

How the fuck you just leave a ****

I never meant to hurt you

How the fuck you just leave a **** out like that

I never meant to make you leave me

I know you feel bad

I'm cleaning out my closet

I'm cleaning this shit out

I ain't tryna be disrespectful but it's like

It's just how I feel

I don't really got no relationship with you so

I don't really give a fuck but

It is what it is

As my lil boy got older

The more I took care of em

The more I was there for em

The more madder I got at you

Because you couldn't do that for me