Soul Searching

It's like I'm racing on Father time

Hard to see the vision when you only see dollar signs

Stick to plan A because the B feel like compromise

Thinking shit sweet this the life they don't advertise

Supposed to use your voice but when you do you get ostracized

Fucking love it oh I fucking love it

Land of the free with free speech air quotes above it

Speaking of the quotes don’t look at those we just blow the budget

Made a million dollars off these songs I just wrote another

I just wrote another

I just wrote another

And I just poured another

I used to solve all my problems with vagina and glossy kisses

Played the game too long fuck around and I lost the misses

In the pool of lust in my trunks that ain’t cautious is it

Then she left my life God made sure to let karma visit

I’m soul searching

In this art in my feelings living my sole purpose

I guess that bottle remedies when my soul’s hurting

Watch it numb away these thoughts till my soul surface

Yeah, I’ll let you interpret

Yeah

Yeah

Yeah

I seen **** turn it back on rap shit you can’t try now

Used to pray my friends would give support but I’m fine now

Public I don’t really say too much but the grinds loud

Truth is, I’ll never wife her up, but we lie down

How you say you love me when the love seeming inconsistent

 Harder to forgive in my heart when I hold resentments

Closer than my fam read my mind you would finish sentence

But I’ll take the blame please forgive me I’ll say repentance

Hope your newest **** come prepared for dishonesty

Sweet little lies, chocolate, covered with modesty

Playing with my mind you too good at psychology

But take that up with GOD I don’t need an apology

(I don't need no fuckin apologies)

(Take that up with God man)

(I don't need nothin from you)

(Go away)

(Yeah)

I was looking in the mirror feel like I'm looking in my past

There was echoes down the hall questions I ain't get to ask

I know it's family drama they' been mentioning my dad

Seen older sister crying, all I know is that is bad

(Nah nah nah)

(Nah, go to the next beat)

(I don't wanna talk about it)

(Go to the next beat!)

(I don't wanna talk about that shit!)