Down By The River

I done been through this

It's hard for you to listen to me 'cause you ain't been through shit

Shut off my mind and follow my heart, so I took plenty risks

How the fuck you hating on me, like God ain't give me this?

It was designed for me to fail when I started

Long as I'm breathing, gotta exhale, so I'ma win regardless

They get depressed 'cause my success but I'm the one went the hardest

Knew the coach seat would turn to a jet soon as that bitch departed

All the dumb shit I did was just a test 'cause I'm the smartest

Now I look back on my life like

I wasn't shit but a kid walk in the pitch black with no nightlight

All the sneaky shit led later to all the secrets I had

Running from death, all the reapers I slid

Ducking discreet, I ain't seeing a bid

And now I hate to be in my head

Lonely, afraid to sleep in my bed

Stuck in my thoughts, sinking

Had to play dumb when I was young, ain't wanna get caught thinking

Facing the ground, can't look at the sun, ain't wanna get caught blinking

Watched my circle get knocked off and now we all shrinking

Now I'm always drinking

Streets made our heart cold, now we all anemics

Blood on that money, it ain't green to me

I can barely tell you what you mean to me

Nick can't never betray me, I don't even need a team

Life a movie but you can't play me, I don't even need a scene

I can't get no help 'cause I don't need a thing

Champion with no belt, never received a ring

Gave out too much love, no more love, I ain't feeling loved

Gotta go cleanse my body, so many drugs, I can't feel the drugs

Drop tears when I get a hug, got too used to **** getting slugs

Start putting my dogs in the wall, got too used to **** getting dug

Six feet, everybody I know six feet

All the people I knew, that's why hammers getting drew

You'll get killed too, try and bitch me

You get put on a plate, thinking shit sweet

You get killed broad day, try and get to me

I get up every day, try to get rich as me

I got more Cuban links than Mr. T

I be stressing though, you be stressing though

Then my stress just add on to your stress until we stressing more

I was stressing less when I was broke, but it's a blessing though

It's so hard for me to shake my past, I learned my lessons though

Where I'm trying to go, sometimes I don't even know

Mentally, I'm broken, sometimes I don't even show it

I be planting seeds, sometimes I don't see them growing

I was supposed to leave, gave up and I never spoke it

Caught a fed case, then lost my ****, it got me back toting

I'm like fuck ****, but heart so big, it got me wide open

Scared to leave my energy with my kids, got me outside rolling

Comparing the shit I'm doing with what I did, it got me back smoking

What's my destiny? I know it, will I fulfill it? Shit, I'm hoping

It's my passion and I know it

Tell you I'm thuggin' but I'm coping

All this money don't mean nothing

Pass out hunnids like they tokens

And my future, I can't control it, but I be damned if I blow it