Deja Vu

I have my reasons

I have my say

I have opinions

This time they’ll pay

I watch the clock tick

Another day

It’s wasted

I should be grateful

I try to play

Attempt to laugh more

Or cry at least

I’m just so distant

Your distant cousin

I’m what’s her face

What if I wake up and see that I fade?

What if I’m never opaque?

What if the fear that I hold for tomorrow’s actually planted today?

What if I call every day deja vu?

Really it’s all just the same

Who will I be when the places are called?

Nobody’s calling my name

I, I don’t want to make it right

I just want to watch it die

Can’t keep running back to you

I, I don’t want to waste my time

Out here trying to change my life

And I know that it’s not you

I’ll give my truth now

Dissect the peace

I think I’m entering

Someplace diseased

I don’t say nothing

I heavy breathe

But then I stay

What if I wake up and see that I fade?

What if I’m never opaque?

What if the fear that I hold for tomorrow’s actually planted today?

What if I call every day deja vu?

Really it’s all just the same

Who will I be when the places are called?

Nobody’s calling my name

I, I don’t want to make it right

I just want to watch it die

Can’t keep running back to you

I, I don’t want to waste my time

Out here trying to change my life

And I know that it’s not you