I bUrIeD mY pAsT bEnEaTh ThA fLoOrBoArDs BuT iT sTiLl HaUnTs Me WhEn I sLeEp

Bury me near highways Uh uh So no one can hear my screams Stare at the TV screen Lucy be twisting scenes Hiding the cuts on my wrist With my sleeves in hopes That no one can see me bleed Stomping my feet through these Warzones but Lord knows It's normal for me Drugs in my system Gold on my teeth Hoping that fucking this hoe And the gold will make me feel like Something I wanna be This rope holds my throat It gets harder to breathe And my soul will descend Down to the hopeless infernos Where brimstone be burning me It has occurred to me Heaven, no I won't see If God really loved me Why put me through trauma I'm loading the llama And ready to squeeze Imma product of father And how I was brought up My sister assaulted me sexually I replay them scenes In the back of my noggin They talking I'm thinking bout popping And dropping The only time I ever feel Is when cutting My mom reassures me But still feel like im nothing I'm destined to die By my own reflection I'm losing my leverage And questioning Heavenly presence Why sissy got to do that to me And T know I love you But thoughts in my noggin Are telling me to put you down In a coffin I get that hurt people Hurt people And you were hurt people And for that I forgive you And I won't return the same evil