Deadweight

The time that I wasted here was so exhausting

I can't scratch the surface

I'm losing all that I thought was real

Held down by every time I felt disrespected

The weight takes its toll

You held my hand to steal my soul

Drag me through your misery

Your trauma attached to my innocence

Bleed me dry with promises that one day it will be okay your way

But

Still the pain remains

Stagnated

Complacent

Draining all my nourishment

My torment, I'm fading away

But it goes both ways

Now it's time I get my fill

And make you feel like this is real

My hand clenched around your heart

A bleeding heart is worthless

Only on the surface

I squeeze but it runs dry

So tell me why

You feel

Nothing

Cheating, lying

Constant screaming, crying

You're alone, bitch, die slow

Eating your eyes out

It's your fault, you're blind now

I'm living to break you down

Everything will feel like deadweight

It's been a long time coming

Brief embrace, I must erase

Serrated blade to close my case

I'll bleed you out despite my fate

And send you to an early grave

Matter of fact

You don't deserve this

Taking away your life would give you purpose

Breaking down all my thoughts of causing you harm

And build myself back up to prove that you were wrong

In time, I realized that you don't control me

You couldn't scratch the surface

I'm getting back what I knew was real

I'm high on how it feels to be self respected

The weight takes its toll

It's what I needed to make me whole