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I dreamt of my mother and woke up exhausted

I say the word "dreamt" to myself three times

It’s been a whole year since I had and lost it

I say my old name to myself sometimes

I pick an old fight with my dad in my head

I say the word "dad" to myself three times

It’s been a whole life since that word was sacred

I know that I am by myself sometimes

And it’s true I don’t have anyone to call

And it’s true I don’t have you

And it’s true this happens every fall

But it hurts like it’s still new

I pick up the phone, and you sound exhausted

You say "I’ll be fine" to yourself three times

I thought I’d come over, but then you dropped it

I like to lay blame on you sometimes

And it’s true I don’t have anyone to call

And it’s true I don’t have you

And it’s true this happens every fall

But it hurts like it’s so new

I go to get food and come home exhausted

I’m feeding myself each day three times

I’m left with too little or too much too often

I wonder when I’ll get it right sometimes

I’ll get it right sometime