I Don't Like Who I Was Then (feat. Ryland Heagy of Origami Angel)

Tossed around like sea glass, and you rounded out my edges

I'll feel better when the headaches go away

I got a scar across my forehead, turning purple in the cold

From a night at Shore Memorial, I was sixteen and afraid

I turned away, I'm working baby face out of Mid-South in the '80s

I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I wanna shoulder the weight till my back breaks

I wanna run until my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enough

Hidden in the tall grass in the naked light of day

I put my past self in the ground, I've been dancing on the grave

I'm not the person that I was then

I'm tearing him away

I was bitter, I was careless

I was nineteen and afraid

But you deserved more from me

I don't know why I would say those things

But you deserved more from me, and I'm trying every day

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I wanna shoulder the weight till my back breaks

I wanna run until my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enough

You left me walking in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the baby teeth I buried

You were the sounds of distant cars

Left me walking in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the banner that says "No One" that I tattooed across my heart

You left me walking in circles

You left me walking in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were a shot in the dark

You're scattered like ashes across every song that I write

You're where the light pollution starts

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I wanna shoulder the weight till my back breaks

I wanna run until my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

Enough is enough