Permanent Vacation

My daddy said he was on permanent vacation

And he said he's never coming back

Hawaiian shirts and some side relations

I don't know how I'm suppose to deal with that

Eight years old watching grown man lie

Twenty years later and you still don't reply

Ooh

Ooh, yeah

Papa use to call it a generational curse

Probably made it worst

Just a bad excuse to chase a mini skirt

Sneaking off with hoes, Mama off at work

Wasn't just a flirt, you was doing dirt

Playing in the mud, forgot it stained your shirt

Shoved the knife in me, and said it shouldn't hurt, damn

I am just an apple falling off the tree

You picked me from the ground and took a bite of me

You bit into me deep and cut an artery

I wonder if this is how it's suppose to be?

You don't even know

I'm not even gonna get into it, damn

My daddy said he was on permanent vacation

And he said he's never coming back

Hawaiian shirts and some side relations

I don't know how I'm suppose to deal with that

Hold up, I'ma just fast forward time

It's just me and mines, it's that demon hour, 11:59

Sipping out the bottle, pinot was the wine

Think about this girl I met Tinder, huh

Start to tap them digits, I was so relentless

What I didn't mention, that I was committed

Soft monogamy, so pussy's not permitted

'Less it's her permission, that was her position

Side relations, yeah, I probably should have mentioned

Did the unthinkable, Lord forgive 'em

Start to think about my dad and my position

I can't talk no shit 'cause I don't see no difference

What he did is what I'm doing

Fuckboy language, speak it fluent

Walk the path, that's if the shoe fit

And here's the truth, I'm just like you

My daddy said he was on permanent vacation

And he said he's never coming back

Hawaiian shirts and some side relations

I don't know how I'm suppose to deal with that

Eight years old watching grown man lie

Twenty years later and you still don't reply

Ooh

Ooh

I thought you loved me

You said you cared about me

I let you in

I trusted you

And this is how you thank me?

You know what, I can't

I'm done, I'm through

It's over

Goodbye