Opposite Action

Non dairy vanilla ice cream cone

Trapped in a heat dome

Trapped inside my head

Spent $200 grow some jalapeños but the bugs came by and ate them instead

I hope those caterpillars feel so gourmet

I hope that this week I get at least one good day

I never thought I'd hate the summertime but I’m so good at finding negatives in every season

Strung out and alone what did I mean to do when I opened my phone

Sometimes there isn’t a good reason

I keep driving to the ocean

I keep on going in it

But i still keep on crying

I keep vacuuming my carpet

I keep on making dinner

But I still think of dying everyday

I don’t know why

I keep on doing all the shit everybody says you’re supposed to do and there are times that it feels close to working

But everything is empty

At the end of the day

When my friend hangs up

And my mind turns gray

And my bed's too hot

And my room’s too big

And I trying so hard

To get over it

I keep driving to the ocean

I keep driving to the ocean

I keep driving to the ocean

Thinking what if I quit

3:30 I crawl back into bed

Should I drink coffee should I try to up my meds

Noncommittal cancellation I can't hang til 7

Let's do something Saturday instead

One day I’m gonna build a commune in the forest where everything is simple calm and free

But for now I'm forcing smiles and telling white lies to my parents in between idealistic fantasies

I keep driving to the ocean

I keep on going in it

But i still keep on crying

I keep vacuuming my carpet

I keep on making dinner

But I still think of dying everyday

I don’t know why

I keep on doing all the shit everybody says you’re supposed to do and there are times that it feels close to working

But everything is empty

At the end of the day

When my friend hangs up

And my mind turns gray

And my beds too hot

And my room’s too big

And I trying so hard

To get over it

I keep driving to the ocean

I keep driving to the ocean

I keep driving to the ocean

Thinking what if I quit

Between Opposite action and repression is a thin gray line

I wanna give into the worst of me sometimes

It's cool to be collected when we get older

And end the toxic friendship with the devil on each of our shoulders

My actions are so opposite they'll give me an award

I'm doing everything I should be doing but I'm just so bored I'm bored I'm just so bored

I keep on driving to the ocean

I keep on driving to the ocean

I keep driving to the ocean

Thinking what if this is the best it's gonna get