Dissatisfaction

When the sunlight hits my face at half past dawn

I peel myself off of the couch

Another wasted night, I'm feeling down

Overthinking all the ways that I went wrong

Since you left and said that

We would never work unless I changed myself

And now I'm scared that I'll lose

Everyone I love

Like I lost you

I've been trying all my life to just ignore dissatisfaction

But it's obvious it's not going away

I'm internalizing all the words you said to gain perspective

And now I'm better off, but I'll never be the same

I've been haunted by that January night

When you told me that my troubles are the only thing I talk about

And it feels like I've been wandering through life

With no direction

I hear your voice inside my head, it's like you're still around

Now I'm scared that I'll lose

Everyone I love

Like I lost you

I've been trying all my life to just ignore dissatisfaction

But it's obvious it's not going away

I'm internalizing all the words you said to gain perspective

And now I'm better off, but I'll never be the same

I'll never be the same

I've been trying all my life to just ignore and stay distracted

But I don't think I'm coping well these days

I wish I could forget the words you said for just a second

I'm worried that I'll never be the same