falling, holding on (feat. autrioly)

My stomach was sick, I'm sinking

Wonder what you've been thinking

All on my own, I've been at home

I've been alone and drinking

When all the day subsides

And the thoughts would fill my mind

Surprised that I'd have anything to hold at all

Clawing at you

Falling, holding on

It's hard to walk away from what you love

Even if the thought of you and me

Is dead and gone

I still struggle with the thought of moving on

Pouring empties out

Hope it knocks me out

Take another, just to shut my mouth

I think I think too much

Until I drink too much

And end up waking up as someone else

I think you hate yourself

The way I hate myself

And sometimes wish that I was somewhere else

I think I think too much

Until I drink too much

And end up waking up as someone else

Maybe it's time that I fessed up

But you're building a wall I can't enter

If I followed you down to the letter

I promise I wouldn't be here, I'd be better

And we could've done this together

You can't live in the moment forever

You can lie to their face

But the people you're pushin' away will always remember

And I wish that I tried just a little bit harder

If I could've carved out my words to be sharper

If I coulda put all my anger inside

Just to give you a light

But I'm only making it darker

I shouldn't push blame on someone that really needs help

Every artist will paint a version of pain

That they only see in themselves

But when it all comes crashing down

Will you shut me out, or will you weigh me down?

Cause everybody wants somebody to love

But somebody to love won't wait around