When I Wake Up I'm Sad

It’s clear that I’m addicted before I’ve even started

Another thing to control myself over consuming

But I’m no good with eating sometimes it makes me nauseous

Avoiding putting the weight on my face again

And some people think that’s stupid coz I’ve been called beautiful but it doesn’t matter what you say if you’re trying to cheer me up

Maybe I’m realistic coz we’re always getting older

24 and I’ve still never been in love, love

And I’ve got so much

And so I hold onto this focus on something

that gets me out of bed in the morning

Cos’ when I wake up I’m sad

And I’m not saying I need a lover but if I did

I know that I’m obsessive with self detrimental thoughts and habits catastrophizing everything

But don’t say that I’m dramatic no I’m just afraid of dying before I get the chance to be what I’ve wanted to be

Since 15 years old when I borrowed Jacob’s guitar

And he let me keep it until I’d learned all of pumped up kicks

Well a lot has changed since then

I’ve sang at his funeral

Cos’ he died at 21 but I keep him here in my songs and

Hold onto this focus on something

that gets me out of bed in the morning

Cos’ when I wake up I’m sad

And I’m not saying I need a lover but if I did

I’d fall into them and slow time with kissing

a slightly less lonely life than I’m living

But when I wake up I’m sad

And I’m not saying I need a lover but if I did

But if I did

But if I did

But if I did

Hold onto this focus on something that gets me out of bed in the morning

Cos’ when I wake up I’m sad

And I’m not saying I need a lover but if I did

I’d fall into them and slow time with kissing a slightly less lonely life than I’m living

But when I wake up I’m sad

And I’m not even sure a lover could fix that