Amethyst

Lunar studded starscape

Doldrums in the calm

Drama of dark choirs

God's teeth shatter

His black smile

Muted in padded shadow

What is life? I don't know

All I know is its price

Savaging left me incomplete

So I army crawled toward a glow

Of craving and release

Travesty in a gloomy world

Where the embers of honeyed heat

Formed a tar of black beginnings

Where I own every want

Always seeking to enter

A taker begging for closure

Go, I need aloneness

I was feigning relief

Wasn't calm until now

I need your guidance

Will you see me?

Can you see I need you now?

This curse overwhelms me

Can't you see I need you now?

Oh, I need allegiance

When you find me coming down

I'll have only known the sound of your absence

Wondering if I could ever wind up being him

He's not me, he's not me

All this daydreaming without sympathy

Going over the years

When we lived together

At the end of the track in the Townhouse Motel

Blood on the mattress, blood on the walls

All of the violence, all of the cops

And when the men came with their guns

First we hid in the bath, then hid on the bed

I loved you then, I love you now

I loved you then, I love you now

I forgave you, I was proud

To live in your shadow

In the comfort of your breeze

So, I'm not condemning

Just remembering the beginning

Majesty and misanthropy

Beginning at forty

From the zenith underneath

Nadir, nadir, nadir, nadir, nadir

From every day living

Waking in fear