Amethyst

Lunar studded starscape Doldrums in the calm Drama of dark choirs, God's teeth shatter His black smile muted in padded shadow What is life? I don't know All I know is its price Savaging left me incomplete So I army-crawled toward a glow of craving and release Travesty in a gloomy world Where the embers of honeyed heat Formed a tar of black beginnings Where I own every want Always seeking to enter A taker begging for closure Go, I need aloneness I was feigning relief Wasn't calm until now I need your guidance, will you see me? Can you see I need you now? This curse overwhelms me Can't you see I need you now? Oh, I need allegiance When you find me coming down I'll have only known the sound of your absence Wondering if I could ever wind up being him He's not me, he's not me All this daydreaming without sympathy Going over the years when we lived together At the end of the track in the Townhouse Motel Blood on the mattress, blood on the walls All of the violence, all of the cops And when the men came with their guns First we hid in the bath then hid on the bed I loved you then, I love you now I loved you then, I love you now I forgave you, I was proud To live in your shadow In the comfort of your breeze So, I'm not condemning Just remembering the beginning Majesty and misanthropy Beginning at 40 from the zenith underneath Nadir, nadir, nadir, nadir, nadir From every day living, waking in fear