Dumb (so stupid)

no thoughts, got my booch and my ritalin

clean guts, i've been looking for evidence

a stomach churning in perpetuum

bright lights, microdosing the heart attacks

weird dreams, i just wish i'd remember them

no lessons learned from my anxiety

cause i'm dumb, i'm so fucking stupid

gimme something cool to die for

and i'll fucking do it

dumb, i'm so fucking stupid

gimme something cool to die for

something cool to die for

it's all fake, but somehow it's crumbling

no breaks, i just need some repurposing

some half-assed self-fulfilling prophecies

and i'm dumb, i'm so fucking stupid

gimme something cool to die for

and i'll fucking do it

dumb, i'm so fucking stupid

gimme something cool to die for

something cool to die for

a flood of emotion, dammed off,

now comes rushing in

i wish i knew why,

cause nothing's really happening