Sacrifices

I been working on myself but I can't find peace

The perfect version of myself is so beyond me

Yeah, sometimes I wish I was dead

The only reason why im not is I admit I was scared

I ain't gon lie that shit had hurt me, made me sick to my head

I ain't gon let this shit hurt me, let it get to my head

I ain't gon lie, ima lost cause, in my lost thoughts

Im just tryna find home

Thought I would fail that's what they all thought

That's what they all want

I just wanna be alone

Makin pain song after pain song

And see the sun shine when the rain gone

They never said a word that was real

Yeah, that's the burden I feel

You don't know the hurt that I feel

When my potnas got murdered and killed

But deserve to be here, yeah you don't know the hurt that I feel

I been walking through these puddles

Staring at the clouds, thinking bout my mother

Hoping the she proud

And they don't know a thing about my life

The pain that's in my eyes

The things ive sacrificed

All the times ive had to lie

Just to try not to cry

Try not to hide every feeling inside, oh

I been working on my soul

I been tryna heal I been working on my goals

I don't know how to feel I think im becoming cold

I just wan be real I think I done done the most

I think im worthless

I don't feel like im worth it

Even though you always tell me that im perfect

Tired of hurtin, tired of searching

Tired of always tryna look behind the curtain

I feel so below the ground, ground

Why the fuck I feel lonely now, now

I just want you to hold me down

I just want you to hold me now

The only thing that matters is you and my son

I looked into your eyes and knew you was the one

Did you ever think we'd ever get far as we come

I never thought we'd ever fall this deep in love

I been working on myself

Tryna find my way back home

But things that I been through in my life

It made me feel alone

Searching for the heart I had but it feels like it turned to stone

I done gave it all I had

Now everything is gone except for you

Except for you x3