Cross To Bear

Allow no joy

'Cause I am only me when I bereave

All my warmth pushed below the surface

Allow no joy

No exhilaration

I do not feel like me anymore

You are my cross to bear (Cross to bear)

Yet I pushed you away when you came back for me

I would have died for you (But now that you're gone)

I should have died for you

I'm still dying for you

I will not let myself be subsumed

You're haunting every waking moment

This trauma bonds

This world denies my actualization

I will not believe that this is me

I don't even know if you're real

I cannot feel the same detail anymore

You are my cross to bear (Cross to bear)

Yet I pushed you away when you came back for me

I would have died for you (But now that you're gone)

I should have died for you

I'm still dying for you

I could almost breathe

But you held me under

You held me

For all of our sakes and our future selves

Despite what I said

I pray this is not the end

The end has come

You are my cross to bear

Yet I pushed you away when you came back for me

And I would have died for you (But now that you're gone)

And I should have died for you

I'm still dying for you

But now that you're gone

My yearning has only grown