Idk

The water took over the fields that day

Only some trees have fallen

But this time somehow all my shields

Are up, there's something we have in common

I took a train home in december

It feels odd, but I remember

Being scared of it

This time it didn't hit me

Sometimes I wonder

Why

I only started now

I picked up books and I read pages how to talk in a crowd

I pick up my best friend

With her I don't have to pretend

I'm gonna stop to wonder

Why, I am the way that I am

Is it my brain or is it people that feel like an exam

Not gonna play pretend

I'll wait until our story ends

I can't recall a bunch of feelings

When I feel better I forget

I recon I'm no longer steeling

Your words and faces anymore

Don't need you to call me back inside

I think it maybe left mind

It feels odd and insane and nothing like pain

I finally control it

I can barely hold it now

Sometimes I wonder

Why

I only started now

I picked up books and I read pages how to talk in a crowd

I pick up my best friend

With her I don't have to pretend

I'm gonna stop wonder

Whyyyy, I am the way that I am

Is it my brain or is it people that feel like an exam

Not gonna play pretend

I'll wait until our story ends

Ahhhhhh

I'm gonna stop wonder

Whyyyy, I am the way that I am, is it my brain or is it people that feel like an exam

Not gonna play pretend

I'll wait until our story ends