Play This At My Funeral

(Jacob made this) (Julioo), alright My mom was an addict and pop wasn't there (he wasn't) Trust me, I still ain't care My stepdad came in, show me the ropes, and he died And it's messed up, ain't it? I know I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home And you feel like it's nowhere to go I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year And you still got nothin' to show (trust me, I know) I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody God had to prove me wrong I'd never thought I'd be able to jump on stage And people would know my song I spent 22 years in this world, and I'm hopin' I still got 22 more on the clock My lil' sister is 19, just had a baby that nobody told me about (nobody told me) My calls been goin' to voicemail How I'ma call on you, when you never can answer? Soon as my life goin' good It seem like another person diagnosed with cancer Nobody told me that kids like me (nobody told me) Who grew up with ACEs, die way faster So maybe I'm already cooked (uh-huh) It feel like my life a disaster (it feel like my life a disaster) It feel like I'm cursed or trapped in a cycle in life where I never could win I'm used to the hurt, I'm trapped in the cycle of pain where it never could end I've been on the other side, nobody told you the grass ain't green as it seem I gotta go hard, the burdens of all my brothers been livin' through me I do it for all my homies and most of the people who told me I couldn't I help anybody that I can, I know that they ain't do it for me and I shouldn't I'm showin' my dog a whole another way to his life and it do feel good As long as they smilin', I'm happy They ask would I change, and I wouldn't My mom was an addict and pop wasn't there Trust me, I still ain't care My stepdad came in, show me the ropes, and he died And it's messed up, ain't it? I know I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home And you feel like it's nowhere to go I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year And you still got nothin' to show I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody but I know why God had to prove me wrong I'd never thought I'd be able to jump on stage And people would know my song I spent 22 years in this world, and I'm hopin' I still got 22 more on the clock My lil' sister is 19, just had a baby that nobody told me about