I'm Not Dying to Be Here

Far away

You sit in my disgrace

And you just fake your mistakes

Break your Grade A's

Take my safe space

Drown me in your shame

I fear

I want you near

This time of year

I'm not dying to be here

All along the outside, you see in

I'm not dying to be here

Here again

I'm forced to play pretend

And now, I never fit in

Always missing, feeling distant

All because I won't

Get through to you

I want you near

This time of year

I'm not dying to be here

All along the outside, you see in

I'm not dying to be here

I'm not dying to be here

Are you on your way?

There's something to say

Despite it all

I wish you would call

'Cause I'm dying to be here