Pool (feat. Elmiene)

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust

Yeah, 'cause all we got is our word, right?

Would the weight of my love give me some of your touch?

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust

Yeah, would you still love me?

Would you love me? 'Cause that's all I can give

Woke up, not sure if I slept, I ain't feeling well

Mind racing, I'm sipping on the ZzzQuil

Manager cracking down the whip 'cause we need sales

Every day is like climbing mountains, feeling like it's hell

T see I ain't right, and my girl could tell

Should I see somebody and receive help?

Started feeling out of body and I'm looking frail

Went vegan, trying to get in clothes that they didn't sell

Tornado, my whole life was spiraling

Started smoking to be social with anxiety

Mad Man Tour was the name, what a irony

Went hard trying to transcend to the higher me

Had it all, but it wasn't satisfying me

Always felt I could go harder is what I believed

Hope women numb the pain that will always surface

Tired of running, so I had to stop to find purpose

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust

Would the weight of my love give me some of your touch?

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust

Yeah, took a whole lifetime to write some shit like this

Would you love me? 'Cause that's all I can give

But I figured I'll just give it to y'all

At ten, I was drowned and touched when I was in the pool

All the breath left my body where I couldn't move

Violated, hand on my private by a bigger dude

Seconds felt like forever, really wasn't cool

When he seen me 'round the block, he'd smile and laugh

As if we had a little secret, and I hated that

Thinking 'bout what he did really made me mad

Even thought about murder, wanted to kill his ass

Told nobody except my cousin

One time, he made a joke, but he ain't know nothing

I asked God, "Why me? Let me know something"

I like girls, fuck he thought, that **** on something?

As a kid, all this guilt laid up inside of me

Couple **** called us gay 'cause we was designing things

I was triggered, and that shit really bothered me

Toxic masculinity was building up inside of me

So I had to have women in variety

This the chip that took me out of poverty

I was running from the people and the pain

Tryna bury guilt with the fame

Everybody here when it's sunny (When it's sunny)

Tell me, who gon' love me through the rain? (Who gon' love me?)

When it's game, who shall remain?

I just hope you never change

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust

Would the weight of my love give me some of your touch?

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust

Would you love me? 'Cause that's all I can give

When you give up all your love to me, then I'm gonna make you see

That you're worthy, that you're worthy

When you give up all your love to me, then I'm gonna make you see

That you're worthy, that you're worthy

When you give up all your love to me, then I'm gonna make you see

That you're worthy, that you're worthy

When you give up all your love to me, then I'm gonna make you see

That you're worthy, that you're worthy

When you give up all your love to me, then I'm gonna make you see

That you're worthy, that you're worthy