Because You Asked

About a decade back

You asked, if I died, would I haunt your room

I said, "Go to sleep, you won't bury me anytime soon

I've tried for years, I think it's clear that I'm immune"

Now my hands twitch, my blood resists

The thrill of my favorite punishments

Thoughts rewind, and I find an answer in the loop

If I died, I'd stand watch till someone's God forced me to move

I'm not saying all this to get you back

No, honey, it's just 'cause you asked

Whenever it rains, I'd watch you navigate

A minefield of things from the kitchen sink

Bowls and pots in spots the landlord ignored the leaks

While the window pane cascades in the busted gutter stream

Under your bed, I'd find the jade pendant

Mixed with hairclips and tarot decks

An olive branch I bought you with my first bartending check

Watch it slowly fade on the broken chain you ripped from your neck

I'm not saying all this to get you back

No, honey, it's just 'cause you asked

Don't get it wrong, I'm not trying to win you back

No, it's just 'cause you asked

I'd watch our dog's face turn gray

Too tired to play

One day, she won't return with you

New men, old tears

Eviction fears

You and the mirror will conspire to move

I'd stay with your stray hairs

Keep the super scared

During repairs, you demanded for years

Fresh coat of paint

Over marks you made

When none of you remains

I'd disappear

I'm not saying all this to make you come back

No, honey, it's just 'cause you asked

Don't get it wrong, I'm not trying to win you back

I swear, it's just 'cause you asked