Featured In
Credits
PERFORMING ARTISTS
Halsey
Vocals
Greg Kurstin
Drums
Wyatt Bernard
Keyboards
Michael Uzowuru
Keyboards
Alex G
Guitar
Austin Corona
Guitar
Dylan Wiggins
Drums
Caleb Laven
Synthesizer
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Halsey
Songwriter
Greg Kurstin
Songwriter
Gregory "Aldae" Hein
Songwriter
Caleb Laven
Arranger
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Greg Kurstin
Producer
Wyatt Bernard
Producer
Michael Uzowuru
Producer
Austin Corona
Producer
Caleb Laven
Vocal Producer
Julian Burg
Engineer
Matt Tuggle
Engineer
Sean Matsukawa
Recording Engineer
Mark "Spike" Stent
Mixing Engineer
Matt Wolach
Assistant Engineer
Kieran Beardmore
Assistant Engineer
Randy Merrill
Mastering Engineer
Conner McFarland
Assistant Engineer
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I'm caught up in the everyday trend
Tied up by invisible thread
Walking down a razor-thin edge
And I wake up tired, think I'm better off dead
Been a few months since I crossed over state lines
Talk to my mom, fake smiles over FaceTime
Drink all night till I can't walk a straight line
Feel so low, but I'm high at the same time
[PreChorus]
I can't keep my feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out
[Chorus]
I think that I should try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
[Verse 2]
Still a little kid that can't make friends
Wanna be invited, but I won't attend
I been having bad dreams, my career could end
'Cause I slip up when I should've played pretend
Turned eighteen, and I left the city
I said, "I wanna be cool, I don't wanna be pretty"
Voices all came crashing down
And said, "You're too nice to run this town"
[PreChorus]
I can't keep my feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out
[Chorus]
I think that I should try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah, nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not that happy being me
[Bridge]
I don't like the lie I'm living
I'm way too nice and too forgiving
I wanna go back to the beginning
When it all felt right
A rooftop, Lower East Side, I'm singing
Didn't give a fuck if I was winning
It's all done now, so who am I kidding?
I'm doing way worse than I'm admitting
[Chorus]
I think that I should try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah, nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not that happy being me
Written by: Greg Kurstin, Gregory "Aldae" Hein, Halsey, Stuart Price