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I wouldn't think that I am

I wouldn't think that I am once again doing the same thing

Believe me or not

Believe me or not

Believe me or not I never wanted it that way

I'm alone in the castle

I'm alone in the castle and no one sees me there

I don't really care

I don't really care about what you will see in me or in anyone else

When I'm with myself

When I'm with myself alone at home

Alone at home again

I'm actually not okay

I'm actually not okay with the end

At all

At all it's never been easy to see

Never at all

Never at all

The way is too long

The way is too long to reach anything

You want me to reach right now

I can't believe

I can't believe I'm actually feeling good right now

I don't think that's true

I don't think that's true that I'm actually feeling good right now

I don't know if it would matter

I don't know if it gets better if I could show

The actual feeling when I'm low

I don't know if i could tell you

What I feel there what i could share

What I see there in my head

I don't know if it's actually that bad

I would look at it

I would describe it

I would talk about it with you

Is it that

That you are there and I am there

And you don't fucking care

Is it that

That you are there and I am there

And you don't fucking care