Hate You First

I hate you for making me something I wasn't meant to be and

I hate I let you do that to me

And I hate you for changing my mind when I made it up

I hate that I gave up so easily

Yeah, and holding on is weighing down on me

I wanna be free

I wanna be me again, baby

I wanna go back in time to nineteen

Tell her everything I've seen and

I wanna trust

I wanna let go, but it still hurts

You know what you did

I wanna forgive you, but I

Need to hate you first

I love me for leaving, I'm proud that I did

And I love that you can see how I'm doing now

It's kind of validating hearing other people saying

They watched you put my fire out, but it's coming back around

I wanna be free

I wanna be me again, baby

I wanna go back in time to nineteen

Tell her everything I've seen and

And I wanna trust

I wanna let go, but it still hurts

You know what you did

I wanna forgive you, but I

I need to hate you first

Mm-mm

I pray one day I think about you

And realize I don't think about you

I had to feel it all to feel nothing

Yeah, I pray one day I think about you

And realize I don't think about you

I had to feel it all to feel nothing

I wanna be free

I wanna be me again, baby

Wanna go back in time to nineteen

Tell her everything I've seen

And I wanna trust

And I wanna let go, but it still hurts

You know what you did

I wanna forgive you, but I

Need to hate you first

Mm

Need to hate you first