This Is The Year

I guess I never saw it coming

having a future beyond the month of May

and though I’m looking like I’m done in

I said goodbye to most of my old ways

I never really thought I’d say it

but I got through the darkest of my years

and though I know I barely made it

I found my reasons to stay here

I know it won’t be easy

but it’s never really been

I know I’m barely breathing

(but I mean it when I say)

This is the year I almost died

this is the year I almost died

this is the year I almost died

this is the year that I’m surviving

I guess I never really saw it

All the shoulders I can cry on

everything I ever wanted

has always been revolving around me

I guess I never really done it

take a look around me and count

the hands that keep reaching

the hearts that keep beating

I can not believe the love I’m receiving

I know it wasn’t easy

to try and stay my friend

I know who didn’t leave me

(and honestly it’s because of them that)

This is the year I almost died

this is the year I almost died

this is the year I almost died

this is the year that I’m surviving

This is the year I almost died

this is the year I almost died

this is the year I almost died

this is the year that I survive

(I refuse to believe)

(that my life is going to be)

(something I don’t want to live)

(I refuse to believe)

(In a life not worth living)

(I’m going to turn it around)

(Watch me turn it around now)

(I refuse to believe)

(that my life is going to be)

(that my life is going to be)

This is the year that I survive